Everything is quiet

I only know because I carry you around in the background.

I can only say I'm sorry as I'm covered in tears. I can't even interpret my own thoughts - I don't know how long it's been like this, or what has caused it to be this way. He said I'm just trying to cheat myself. I wanted to ask him to fuck off. I wish he'd just die.

A part of me has just died. That's what touching you leads me to - I die inside.

I'm sorry you don't know what has happened. Or how fucked up I am. I don't even know where to start. And at the end I'd just say to you, "I want you to love me like you did before you knew me." Then I'll just end up hurting the both of us. Then we can die together. Good idea, no?

The phone fell. So did the rest of me.

Currently listening to: Kristen Dunst - The Girl Inside